Black Dog

Churchill used to suffer from fits of depression, which he called "the Black Dog". Foreign Legionnaires suffered from similar depression known as "Le Caffard".I really wonder sometimes if I am following in this tradition or am just feeling sorry for myself ! It starts with the feeling that I am not doing my job to the best of my abilities. Even such futile jobs as box packing, curry delivery, stacking bottles on a conveyer belt (for Blenhiem Palace Water) and other minimum wage jobs that I have had to take on in the last couple of years. I then really start to worry about paying the bills, and even if we have got enough to get such silly fripperies like food ! I stop reading (this is when it gets really bad as I am addicted to books and usually we will buy a book and raid the deep freeze if the choice is reading or eating !!) I loose all interest in the Internet, play no games and
Then, when I am getting to the bottom of the heap I even stop listening to classical music, which, again is usually my life blood. I sit slumped in front of the infernal goggle box and let mindless programmes flow over me. This usually leads to an excess of red wine – although I have really stopped drinking Scotch as that makes the downward progression quicker. The deep freezer starts to empty and the bills still keep on coming. I then seem to make an unconscious decision and either pick up the ipod or a book and start to pull myself up again. It has been a long time since I felt the blogging urge. But I must get on with life and blgging helps me put it into perspective, and evaluate how deep my depressions are getting
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